hmmm...today is saturday and i didnt go anywhere..i came back to bedok to stay..i kinda feel better when i come back here seriously..i dont feel so....lonely...hahaha...basically..i woke up in the evening today...came online..n do nothing.....nothing at all..not many ppl talked to me online today...so...came down to find sumthing to eat and maid cooked me 2 packets of instant noodle, 2 sausages and one egg..hahaha, kinda full after eating all tht.
hmm...smsed azel...but she was busy i think so didnt realli wan to irritate her la...she seems kinda irritated today u see.please forgive me..wa...but i realli got nothing better to do at home lor!! keep finding food to eat..haha... no shows on tv..ahaha...maybe got la..those music awards at channel u and another one at channel 52 i think...da awards at hongkong.... ok..i ate alot of things today..haha...after da noodle..i ate 2 pieces of bread with kaya n butter on it...then i ate this dumb dorayaki..from taiwan..hahaha..watched doraemon b4? n u shuld know wad i am referring to..hahaha
kinda taste weird actually -.- then after tht my lauyi came back...talked a while..luckily...or not i will die la! realli...then ate grapes...drank milk, drank yakult, drank yam juice, yogurt drink,coke..hahahahaha..alot hor!! then after tht ate sum snacks like..cashew nuts...mixed nuts..im nuts! hahaha...then after tht ate one bowl of cereal -.-" ok~~ hahaha
did watched sum anime movies..like tales of symphonia ova and " the girl who leapt through time" its a kinda...touching show..tht made me kinda emotional..but not bad la~~ quite an interesting show.. n then...browse through youtube..search for sum interesting videos...then yar. found some new songs to sing actually..hahaha..nice songs~ haha..
actually these few days i keep hangingin out with xav,terk,oms,weizhou,dora,lawrence~~ ya...i changed alot when im hanging out with them..i know some new english songs, then i speak more english, n i scolded more f*** than usual -.-" i dunno whether its good or bad la..but don worry la..im still da nice innocent adriano! WAHAHAHA...im luffing myself right now -.-" nvm la..im always a loner anyway...
to be truthful..hmm..since young, since i first came to singapore...im always alone la..kinda used to it.. but sumtimes im realli glad if theres sumone there for me all da time.. still remember last time when im still young n immature, i always blamed my parents for not being there for me.. then i became so~~ childish tht i actually think i could live on my own...n sumhow i also hated them, but now i think abt it, its kinda dumb la actually...cause ur family is always being there for u~~ but da thing is!!! theyr not here!! then im alone in singapore..f*** la..then how..hahaha... thts when i need my gf..-.- kinda stupid but its true la...i dont know y..but most of the time i got love n attention from my gf...thts y sumtimes no gf ar...i will tend to get so...empty...weird...but im not a despo k!!! hahaha
lots of things happened..couldnt type those out da last time...so ya..firstly...last week friday..i went out with bev,lx, n roujun with weizhou, law ,xav along...but halfway they left...they were drunk!! in da club..n i realli take alot of trouble just to take care of em...especially lx.. :( currently...i kinda uh..feel for her..after tht night..actually i kinda interested in b4 tht night but because of sumting she did tht night, i fell for her...which is sumthing i do not want..ok...my frens all scolded me n wadever..but seriously..its not sumthing i wan..she can treat me like trash or wadever but...actually...uh....luckily i dun realli miss her anymore!..i know i means nothing for her..but im realli trying very hard to get over her right now...uh...da pain is slightly gone...i mean...uh...i realli hope it will be gone for good la! wahahahaha!! i need to move on la..im such a loser! hahaha... give me time ppl! but seriously..i realli hope tht she would be a better person la.... as a fren :) but uh..actually all this happen cause im too soft-hearted la..hmm...must be HARD HEARTED! next time..be a meanie~~! hahaha -.-" im feeling much better compared to last time~ hehehe
ok...put tht thing aside..i need to find a new house!!! hahahaa....yar..-.- a new house to stay..with weizhou n xav sharing...but it seems like all da rent rates in singapore r rising high~~ wa... so abit sad actually... :(
n then!! i got nothing better to do..so i saw sum dumb picture on da net -.- below is an indian which look..kinda scary~~ hahaha eyes bulging out !! u know..hahaha
n then. this photo...found it in my computer..hmm....it has been a long time since i said it n also quite a long time since i heard it from sumone... yar..kinda miss da times actually...in love~~~ oh well...hahaha
n then~~~ okok..let me explain ppl!! cause my frens...keep saying me a pedophile nowadays cause lx is onli sec 2 n i likes her..ok...let me correct it "liked"..k~ hahaha...thts y my friendster ...u know..i refer myself as a pedophile.but im not actually one k! sum even thought my acc was hacked la! wad da hell! hahahaa..ook....my acc is like tht is purely for fun k! FUN!!! hahaha nothing much...n then while finding pictures of kids to "show" im actually a pedophile...i stumble upon sum..realli..funny ...pictures~ -.-"like...this below..
n this~~
n~~~da most interesting one..THIS! hahaha...a girl with...pads all over her body -.-" kinda....uh...u know..hahaha
basically...im feeling damn lonely right now la... dont know y..sumtimes i even feel kinda scared to go back to my yishun house..cause whenever i went back there...i feel so...cold n then like theres no one around me...da house feel so empty also even though there is sumone inside...so ya...it kinda reminds me when i stay in angmokio when i would cry everynight..haha...childish right! hahaa..ya..actually its kinda sad la..:( long story~` but well...i need to learn to be stronger!! but right now...cannot la...its like so late at night..then like...so lonely.. so sad...n so cold..seriously i realli need sumone to talk to!! hahaha...ghost? hahaha.joking la...:P maybe after a night sleep i will feel better!! hahaha...
sumtimes...i may sound cheerful, i may look happy but im realli hurting inside know..wad da hell..im emoing!ARGH!! hahahah...cause basically i dun wan ppl to know da soft side of me...yeah!! SMILE :D always look on da bright side of life!! wadever -.-"
